Helpless

I feel so down. Dont know what happen? Just feel like everything not going smooth. Sometimes I feel like I am choosing the wrong decision coz my life at Sabah here is so so only. Actually I like the life over here when I was having my uni life but after I start my social life everything not the same like before. Some people here look so down for Sarawakian. I will always keep in mind the 1st day in my office. How people look down on me. I even drop down my tears in the lunch time. I never feel so helpless before. What can I do is continue my work and wish the time can moved faster then I can go back. Really suffering. But no choice nowsaday not easy to find the job. So must continue to work. Sometime I will think maybe from the beginning, I had choose the wrong way, I should better stay at my hometown, Sibu. But as I know, not much opportunity at Sibu there coz my cousin had stay at Sibu for many months and she dont even can find a job. Finally she find a job at Miri there.
God pls lend me yours hand to make me have the power to continue my way. I am totally tired and pls let my dreams come true. Anyhow, today is Sunday, wish all my readers enjoy the day till max. Coz tomorrow is Monday, I think most people had Monday blue. So do I. Wish everyone happy everyday!!

In Happy Mood

Readers, I got a good news!! I got the job this morning. Yesterday, I was calling to attend the last interview in this morning and lastly after I meet with the boss, Mdm Rose. She is calling me to start working in next monday. Gosh, unexpexted so early. But anyway, finally I got the job with the salary was satisfied to me. Thanks Gods for everything!! And thanks my dear for everything too!!
Tomorrow, my parent and my sis will arrive KK around 10.10am and tomorrow morning I need to go to my future office to sign the agreement. So the time will be rush but mummy said they can wait me at airport there. By the way, tomorrow is a big day for Kadazan coz is Harvest Day!! So will be many people around the town. Becoz of the Harvest Day so make almost 80% hotel at KK here are totally full. Yesterday, me and my dear rush to the town and walk in to the hotel for booking the room for my parents and my sis. I forgot how many hotel we had been walked in and asked about it but lastly we got it. After whole afternoon in looking for hotel, make both of us were exhausted. So we taked our dinner then directly back to our house.
God, pls let my another dream come true. I apologize for not telling the dream over here. Hope your guys wont angry me. That's all for today coz I need to take a bath then attend the dinner from Atan. Good days all my Readers!!

The End of April

Today is the last day of April 2010 and yet I still jobless. I wish I can start working in May but yet I still haven get any job. Today went to the interview and hope I can get this job coz I really like that company. God pls let my get that job!! *pray hard* This few days feel like so stress and make my mood so down. When yesterday I got the call and ask me for the interview in this morning, I feel luckily I get the interview chance. Interview mean still got the chance to get the job and this company is the one I put many hope in it and finally I got the interview. The HR Manager said will call me in next week for 2nd interview. I really wish after the 2nd interview then I can get the job. Actually I just apply for 2 company only and this is the one I like most.
Wish next week, I can get the good news. Next Saturday, dad, mum and hui are coming to KK coz hui who is going to Labuan study. But they just will stay at KK here for one night only so cant bring them go many place and eat many things. Anyway, wish next week I can get the good news!!

I Got The Feeling

My feeling right now is damn complicated and make me so confused in everything. Sometime, I wish I just a baby coz nothing need to worry and everything will be settle by our family. But will the time turn back? The answer will be not. Sometime, I will ask myself is that I over think or what? But something will appear in front of me and show me everything. God please let those unhappy things leave me far away coz I am tired to face it. If that's the signal you ask me to give up? Maybe you noticed that I was exhausted in this situation. I really blur right now!! Which way should I choose? I think I will choose by my feeling. The way that I feel better even though the road will be lonely and tired but I know I still can face it with my own power. I know my lovely God will never leave me whenever and whatever I done.

Happy Chinese New Year

Readers, do your guys know where am I now? The answer is I at Kota Kinabalu International Airlines(KKIA). I am waiting my flight. I just finish my Mcd. There are many people at airport here. I think everyone are going back to their sweet home. So do I. Luckily the WIFI here quite strong enough so I can online here.
Tomorrow going to be the 1st day of Chinese New Year and Valentine Day. Wish all of you HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!! Enjoy there big days with the one you care and love!!

2010

Had been a period of time, I didn't update my blog coz I was busy in my work and I was sick. That sick had totally kicked me. So I wish in 2010 I had a good health coz nowsaday for me healthy is most important than everything. Well, Chinese New Year is at the corner, 2 more weeks to go only. I am going back to my sweet home soon. I can meet my parent, sibling, grandparent, cousin and friends. Seen a long time dont meet them already.

Let's talk about 2010. What will going on at 2010? I wish everyone had a good health and happy everyday. Hope those unhappy things leave us far away. Like what I had been mention, I wish to have a good health, that's my 1st wish. Second, I wish I can earn more money. Third, I wish I can go travelling at the end of the year. Hope my dreams will come true.

How about Chinese New Year? Did your guys ready for it? I was totally ready. I helped my mum bought something special at KK here. When I go town, I can hear everywhere was listening the Chinese New Year's song. Besides, especially Chinese are busying in buying new clothes, shoes, Chinese New Year's stuff and so on.

Anyway, wish all my Readers Happy 2010 and Happy Chinese New Year. Stay happy everyday!!

It's Christmas Time

I love this festival so much!! Christmas is a warm festival. What did I do in this warm day? Well, I went to Sushi King to have my dinner with my dear then had a walk at Warisan Square there. Before the christmas, my office had a event called"Exchange Gift" on 23th December. I had picked Andy, Director of Sales & Marketing as my angle who I need to buy a present for him. I was so nervous coz I dont know I should buy what as a gift for him. Anyway, finally I had decided to buy him a pen which he always needed for signing the contract or document. Luckily he adore the present. What I had received? I got one cute handphone hanger and one christmas keychair from Adenline. By the way, I got my lovely present from my dear as well.

Let's back to the Christmas Time!! After Warisan Square. My dear and I went to Elusion Lounge at Courtyard Hotel. A nice and romantic place!! Feel so relax and enjoyful in there. We take our drink there. That's what I had done in my Christmas day!! I was so excited for coming countdown new year!! Will it be more wonderful in that day? Anyhow, Merry Christmas & Happy New Year for my readers!! Enjoy the last few days for 2009!!