Blurry

Tis few days i felt very tired coz mum no at home so i nid to take care my house n my aunt who juz finish her operation..so i nid to rush here n there..almost noon i will go to hospital there take care my aunt..last nite my dear ask me acc him n his grandparent to view d parade..after tat i went home to take my rest.n suddenly my dear sms me n tell me tat he very stress n plan to drink beer till drunk n even wanna xXx.when i read through d sms,i felt so hurt coz i cant b d one who can hlp him walk out from his stress.i feel myself so useless,u know~will i b my dear's angel?he told me lots thgs by sms last nite..those thgs he never tell me bfore,mayb he never know he make me more worry about him.i know his feeling to me n i never suspicion him.coz i know trust is d most important way to let d relationship stay longer.i really hope he will tell me more bout his pro.mayb i cant hlp but i will at d bak there give him fully support.besides,my best sista who having her marriage n family pro,i also will support her anytime coz i know nothing is impossible.many things happen make me very mistiness what situation n character should i act to help everything under my control?tis year many things happen n i wish after those unluckily or saddness things,lucky is wave d hand with us~HaPpy g0 LucKy,right?

down

Tis few day actually smth happen make my mood bcm quite down but i hide everythg in heart n dont even speak up to anyone..one of my best fren having pro with her family n her marriage.i cant hlp at all coz i am a third party..my family?my sis n my mum quarrel last nite make them dont talk to each other..smtime i really wanna tell my dear but when i notice he is stress with his family n everytime i noticed tat he was very enjoy n happy with his frens,make me b quite n face those thgs alone.i dont wan make him unhappy coz he also nid to face many thgs..last nite i saw my mum drop her tears after quarrel with my sis..i feel so sad n i try to persuade my sis n my mum but seem my mum dont like to speak lots with me..what can i do?i really wish my sis will stand on my mum side n thk.everytime i bak hometown,i hate to c tis situation!!i want have a warm family!!God pls let everythg will b solve so tat i have a harmony family~

thanks dear

Today dear buy lots of things to me,i really feel super bliss..i know u love n care me lots till nothing can replace at all coz u make me feel tat i win everything bcoz of u~mayb sometime i make u very angry or i dont trust u coz i really is a gal who need lots of safety..forgive me,dear~i know u try many ways to let me know tat u love me very much n i am d one who u care most..juz i so childish tat make u angry!!sorry about everything..i love u,dear~muaks!!still remember tat i told u before i trust u tat i am d one who u love d most deep in heart coz i can feel it by my warm heart~

Clubing nite

Long time dont go clubbing,saturday nite go 3c clubbing with dear,hermes,cindy babe,wis n hermes's sis n others..bcoz of 2 dj from kch n one from kl coming to 3c so many people go clubbing..i really cant imagine we can drink 2 bottle of vodka and some heineken..really fun but little bit hot inside there maybe too many ppl gua..i really feel warm coz my dear's frens all really very nice talking so can make me feel enjoyable..

Look little bit drunk of me..so eye look so small

Finally take a nice photo as memory with my dear

hate!!!

Come bak hometown juz few days only but i hate d situation so much!!i cant have an equable days!!why??i just wish everytime when i back home,i dont want to listen d true n lie..dont ask me which one is true n which one is lie??coz i oso dont know..i lazy to care at all!!is all terrible like hell!!!anyone know my feeling?anyone understanding me or not?i always stuck in a dire way..pls!!!i wanna leave in this type of way~if can i hope i dont want to listen anythg anymore..those all things for me is RUBBISH!!!!!!Got any place let me free of those things n tattle..I HATE IT SO...MUCH!!!Pls dont ask me i believe who coz i just believe my feeling n mind!!ur guys make me feel like no ppl can trust in this world..is tat ur guys wan me be like tat??

boring

Last night i bak to my hometown..bcoz of d holiday so i bak home..even go out already for few months but cbu still d same like bfore..nth changing not like sabah there really change a lot everytime i bak to sabah there study again..start from today i can online at home anytime le..so happy~yeah:)feeling boring then playing d webcam there n take d photo..hehe..;)

taking photo with my pyjamas

another one with my baby boy~ah di

Free & Touch

Finally,i finish my final..feel so free n relax right now..i can sleep well n enough coz tis few days i juz slp for 3 or 4 hours per day..non-stop examing make my power from 100 turn to 0 right now.Actually after exam i wan to bak home n take my rest but my dear force me to go 1 borneo..bfore i really angry him coz i already damn tired n dont got power already, and him still wan me to go 1 borneo..at d end,i juz now my frens them wanna hlp me celebrate d birthday..even late for one days but i still feel very touching..n forget all d tiredness..really thanks a lots..make me feel so touching coz we all already very tired but they still wan to hlp me celebrate it:)what ur guys did for me i will always put in heart n wont forget..really thanks~besides from saying thank you,i also dont know need to say what to ur guys~n my favourite cake black forest from ur guys..i miss it so much coz long time dont eat it;)by d way need to say sorry to my dear coz i keep scolding u when we on d way to 1 borneo by saying tat u re not care my feeling:p actually u n them wan give me d surprised..even d surprised had been suspected by me but nvm..i still appreciate it so much:)

p/s :thanks ur guys n i appreciate it so........much!!!!!!!